Stumped

I'm completely stumped. I've been staring at this PC for a while now and apart for the Buffycentric post below, I haven't figured out what to write about.

Is writing about not knowing what to write about a valid topic to write about ? Was that a sentence ?

Usually, it's not hard to come up with an idea. I'll just recall what I read in the paper, or a movie/tv program I saw, or a book I've read and just extrapolate from there. Even vague childhood memories usually works. But this morning I delved into the nether regions of my brain in the hope that I would find a suitably enlightening/interesting and found absolutely nothing.

Ever had one of those days when you feel like your brain is in sleep mode and you can't form any coherent thoughts. Well, this morning I'm having one of those moments.

Just about the only thing I can think of is that now it's February. Boy, where did January go. Not that I miss it, after all what is January but a month full of Mondays. Now I'm thinking funny how fast time flies when we get older. I used to remember back in primary school when a day seemed to last forever and I had all the time in the world to do stuff. Wait, that's the childhood memory thing kicking in. I'm not stumped !

Valentine's Day is coming. It used to bug the hell out of me, what with the mushy overtones and couples over-imbibing in Public Displays of Affection (yecchhh....). It sucked because it reminded me of how loveless and lonely I was. Of course that kind of emotion will lead to the silly questions about why am i lonely and what is wrong with me and what not.

I'm not bugged anymore. I can even watch people get mushy and not gag anymore (well okay sometimes I still do get a bit nauseted). I guess it's a perspective thing. We only feel rotten on Valentine's Day when we feel that we need someone to complete us and that if we're alone we're some kind of freak.

I won't lie. I'd probably feel a bit bluish come the day, but I'm not bitter about it anymore. So what if I'm by myself. It's fine. If you're in a relationship, then all well and good but if not ? So what right. It's not that important.

Besides, Valentine's Day is just a gimmick to sell flowers and candy and listen to sappy songs on the radio (boy that's sounds bitter).

I saw a comment on one of my posts, saying that if we're willing to risk injury in opening up to other people we won't be so alone. I think that's correct, even though it's easier said than done. I thinking maybe one cause of loneliness is our own defense mechanism. What do you guys think ?

Nearly seven. Have to go now. Have a good day.